Everywhere I go, everyone I see looks at me like I'm some alien from an unknown planet, and I really fail to understand this. Firstly I'm not the only homosexual in the world, there are millions if not billions of others out there. Secondly, I don't dress myself like I'm a drag queen covered in half a dozen layers of make-up, I just dress appropriately. Thirdly, I don't walk like some nasty bitch on a ramp, but yet almost everyone looks at me in awe. Why cant people just accept the fact that we are all unique and created for different purposes, thus we are bound to have different tastes and desires. why do they expect me to be a human being they want me to be.
Enough about society and their norms and standards. The reason I wrote this blog is because I'm amazed at how families treat the "situation" of having a homosexual child. I mean my own blood relative has a drag queen friend, and they've accepted him and treat him/her (LoL) like an ordinary human being. No unnecessary stares and glares, no stupid questions, and certainly no awed looks. I also believe that 50% of her friends are gay, but yet when I unleash myself, the alien treatment rises from nowhere. The same individual who has gay friends will ask me "why this", "why that", "are you mad", "what's wrong with you", "this is just so wrong", yadah yadah yadah...Then comes your extended family, they have gay colleagues, but yet when you as a relative walk in or walk out as yourself, they too would ask why why why why why... or rather, they would AGAIN look at you in amazement like your an alien. #rolling eyes... And I fail to understand, why do I get treated like this whereas all my other fellow homo's are being accepted for being true to themselves, even those who lie to themselves (bi-guys/versatile/straight-acting) are being lauded for being part of the lgbti family (sort of). How do they expect me to feel? How do I overcome such prejudice? How do I stop being a victim of stereotype?
Its such negative attitude we get from our supposedly close and loved that keep us in the closet. This stereotypical way of thinking is the cause of many suicide acts that homosexuals undertake. Sometimes a nod of approval is the key one needs in order to fulfil their dreams, but if we are rejected, sorrow, pain and failure will keep on following us. BUT, I have a solution. This solution is God, he said in His word, "he will never leave me nor forsake me" and if I dwell upon His promises I know he will make a way for me. All I need to do is to let him be my all, then He will make me His all, something no human can do. So let them keep on treating me like an alien, God says I was created in his image. Whether they like it or not, I will make myself and God happy, because that's what matters.
Hope you enjoyed the reading, and continue living a gay (English dictionary version) life.
